The Integrated Man

May 29, 2010

Anne is like a wild Colt

Filed under: Anne and The Divorce,Identity,Life,Sex and Love — Integrated Man @ 1:11 am

Let’s get this down while it’s still fresh. Had a reading with Shala and Jesus. My ex wife has low self esteem. She loves in her own way but not as deeply as I do. She is like a wild colt that you can pet sometimes and she’ll come close – other times she will run away. Sometimes the flame burns bright hot, other times it’s down to the pilot light. She has me wrapped around her little pinky and she knows it. I am her rock. She seeks me out when the drama of her own life becomes too tiresome. When she has had her fill of stability and support, she once again withdraws.

No more. I’m going to starve off the supply of rock support. I am going to make her work for it. I am going to be me when I am with her. It has been said that I am less and less of myself when I am with her. I am too nice to try to win her back. I’m going to have to make her work for me. I’m going to cut off access and draw her out. I’m not sure where this is going to lead. I can’t marry the same woman that I divorced. That would be marital suicide. Maybe if she found Jesus found god, decided to be a good Christian wife then maybe. I will not hold my breath.

I am going to withdraw and let her chase me. Hell, this is what I learned in the Tao of Steve. Silly me for forgetting. I am going to quietly withdraw. I am going to have to be patient.

She has said that she is drawn to me because I am her rock, I make her feel safe and protected. I am like home. Very hard to hear that from the woman you loved and lost. It’s hard not to get false hope.

She’s tempted to make love to me. Wants to spread her legs for me. But reticent because she knows it will lead to a relationship.

Here’s what I’m going to do:

I am going to take away her safety net. I am going to really start to limit her access to me. I am going to make her chase. And then I am going to fuck her. Updates to come.

May 22, 2010

Banging my ex wife

Filed under: Anne and The Divorce,Sex and Love — Integrated Man @ 2:38 am

Working on laying my ex wife. I really want to seduce her. It’s a long way back. I’ll keep you posted. In the meantime, I’ll still banging the married chick. More to come.

May 11, 2010

Upcoming

Filed under: Identity,Life,Money,Sex and Love,The Book,The Meaning of Life — Integrated Man @ 10:34 pm

I know I’ve been quiet for a while. I’m working on developing my magnificent obsession. I’m listening to Kevin Trudeau’s magnificent “Your Wish is Your Command” cd set. I’m taking extensive notes which I’ll post and discuss here.

May 7, 2010

Afternoon delight

Filed under: Sex and Love — Integrated Man @ 7:41 pm

Haven’t had much time to post. Danielle is coming over for sex. Got to get my energy up. That girl has an insatiable appetite.

May 2, 2010

Power outtages suck

Filed under: Life — Integrated Man @ 12:06 am

Do not take modern conveniences for granted. We could not live without them.

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